Wednesday, 28 October 2009
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Feeling punk
I just haven't felt like I had anything important to say lately. I gotta get out of this funk. Of course, now I have a cold so that makes it worse.
My daddy passed away a month ago - he was 85 and had a great life. It was unexpected and sudden but quick and painless. Dealing with the aftermath - legal and emotional - is hard. My sister bears the brunt of the legal efforts - but it hit all of us emotionally. Funny how all six sibs deal differently. I try desperately to be 'OK' and manage for a week, then crash, then back to being "OK".
Thinking alot about why we're here - what we're supposed to do - and why we don't. Decided that "Christianity" is a verb, not an adjective; and sitting on my butt in a pew isn't practicing 'Christianity'. Verb, that's what's happenin' (remember Schoolhouse Rock?) So trying to figure out what to do - how to balance motherhood and service to others - and whether leaving it all to work full-time for missions is the appropriate thing. My dh keeps reminding me that missions also need financial support - and we're doing that - and perhaps that IS our part. But HE makes the money - I just give it away! LOL
Even thought of volunteering at the local animal shelter - but it's closing for funding reasons. Sigh. "It's not easy having a good time. Even smiling makes my face ache." If you can place that quote, you probably understand my teen years!
So there's something freeing about being able to sit and write - and I hope some of what I say makes sense. Pray for Haiti - the issues there are so big sometimes they seem insurmountable - until I see the photos Lori posted of the 4 babies on Medika Mamba. And then I know that yes, one person can make a difference.
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As long as you can quote "Rocky Horror" your doing OK kid. I know they sang "don't dream it, be it", but a missionary? I can't stand the thought of you in a pot of hot water, singing "kumbaya"(the horror...the horror). Another of my favorite quotes that seems to put any situation into perspective is from "Start the revolution without me". The king descends the grand staircase dressed as a duck, sheepishly murmuring to anyone who will listen "I thought it was a Costume Ball". Now there are words to live by!
Dave
Dave, you are the funniest! You always know how to make me laugh! I miss those years we had in high school where I was simply "Dave's little sister". I didn't appreciate them enough at the time. And don't worry - Eddie is sure to clip my wings if I try to fly to dangerous heights. And FOR YOUR INFORMATION - the last time I was at the mission NO BODY sang Kumbaya! LOL Perhaps I simply need a duck costume! Love the profile photo! Long live the Grand Immoral Womb!